The title is a note to myself, not to those others who are suffering from SAD. It makes one third of the year horrible, so I have tried many techniques through my art to …just deal with it!
So, one year, I did a drawing each month to make peace.. An example was making peace with December:
Last year, I searched for Paradise and signs of hope:
This year? I’m slipping into depths again…and I’m thinking maybe I should just look and celebrate the beauty in the starkness.
Perhaps, that’s a strategy for dealing with depression in general. As an artist I once knew said, “I prefer to find beauty in ugliness.” So, for now, that’s how I’m going to deal with it this winter.
While I was searching through my artwork, deciding what to enter in the show…I came across a drawing I had done in the very late winter, in the March mud. At the time, I wasn’t sure if I could even draw anything that remotely looked like a landscape. I had put the drawing aside, thinking it wasn’t so good.
As usual, drawings seem to get better with age. On second thought, I decided it had some merit…I really liked the tree!
So, here is “Waiting for Spring”…just rescued from the circular file.
So, I’ve settled into a comfortable routine with this drawing. Here’s a progress shot of a detail,
Here’s to show you…an image a long time ago, that I’m trying to improve upon. Light through the trees is not particularly a paradise image, but it is hopeful.
I’ve managed to put up my own Reiki site. So, it’s on its way. Reiki Master Roxy’s Pages So, for now, I am using this oldie but goodie drawing of mine as a logo. In case you haven’t seen it, Sun Tree:
Yes, it’s been a while. Topsy Turvy winter into spring…kind of chaotic, don’t want to go there.
But still, I’ve had a revelation, I’m more a healer than an artist. So, I’m going to start my Reiki practice again.
But no, I’m not giving up art. It means so much to me, and to many other people. I am, however, going to try to get my ego out of it. That means, back to the intention of making joyful, healing art..without worrying whether it’s a deathless work of art.
So, I realized what I mean by paradises now. They’re gardens! Flowers and plants in a harmonious composition.
So, with that…remember this picture from last year?
I decided to do a complete drawing of the garden in the reflection. Haven’t gotten a name for it, but it doesn’t really matter. Maybe I’ll be an egoistic artist, name it Garden 1, to mystify people. Anyway:
Sometimes, without a real plan, you just have to jump into a drawing. I took a photo, since I’ve been lost for an idea, and planned to draw it. I made a pretty sketchy sketch, giving little insight to me on how to %(@@#ing handle the large drawing.
So after much deliberation, I decided not to be deliberate. I’m going to jump in, feet first, and improvise what I am doing as I draw. Maybe it will work, maybe not. What is life without suspense and mystery after all?
Here’s a peek at the very beginning of the big drawing, and not so coincidentally, my new studio, which is actually just a corner of the living room. Yes, the intended designer showcase entertaining area, has become part office/media center/studio. I’ll be entertaining guests in the kitchen, probably.
It’s not as messy as my old studio..but give me time. 😦
This is the finish of ‘White Tree’. True, not a name brimming with pizzazz and originality, but it is true. It’s also a winter themed drawing, that may end up as a Christmas card, next year, with a more imaginative title at that time.
And so, now what’s next?
Honestly, there are so many ideas that come to mind, having been exposed to this beautiful, new-to-me environment, that I have a bottle neck in my mind. Picture if you will, a computer trying to load down so much at once, that you end up with a blank screen, and a little circle going round and round and round and…..
Wait a moment? Wasn’t I saying something about crows?