Oh, What a Tangled We Weave!

I put away the version that I had of “Making Peace with January 2015”.  I have a new vision for the same subject matter, so I’m expecting to do it as “Making Peace with February 2015”.  I took a moment to really study a seagull against a mackerel sky, and OMG…was it ever different from what I attempted to do.  So, in the not too distant future…..

But back to being tangled.  I made a sketch for the new “January”, and what a messy tangled sketch it is…………

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But believe me, there is method to my tangledness…..going to get started on the large version as soon as I can get a break from my day job.

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For what it’s worth….

As Beau said, never give up a project.  That’s correct, you can always learn from your mistakes, and even if it’s a disaster, you know what not to do.  Also, it nags you, not to the point of insanity, but more like a mosquito bite between your shoulder blades, that you can’t quite reach to scratch.  It’s there, it’s always there.

So, I don’t know what to think of this…but for what it’s worth….it’s here.  “Making Peace with January, 2015”.  I have an idea for a second January drawing, so I may have two January drawings.   Here it is:

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So, I’ll withhold judgment on it..others may enjoy it.  If so, that’s a plus.

I had another drawing that I thought was a complete failure….only to have others rave about it: Grand Central Terminal, Sunday Morning.  In case you haven’t seen it:

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So, I’ve had it with Making Peace with January, 2015…I’ll let the viewers decide.

Well, so much for that…..

Making Peace with January?  Well, this version has been relegated to the pile of abandoned projects with the hope that I will see hope in taking it up again.  Or at least I hope.

Anyway, while I’ve been working on it, the moody sunsets you only get in the wintertime have been attracting me. Unlike the red, pink glorious sunsets you get in the summer with the contrast of muted dark green…these sunsets have a subdued personality.  If they were people they’d be introverted seekers.  I think my imagination is running away with itself.

I know I’ve shown this lately, but it gives the idea of what I have in mind.  It’s one of the Christmas cards I made, and I see possibilities in it (apart from the cutsie animal, which I still haven’t determined what it is).

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Planning on making it a little more urban.  But I hope you get the idea.

Sometimes, you just gotta say @&^$^ it.

Okay, maybe it’s karma I earned for the pride I expressed in how much easier doing art is for me, now. …but I’m in a real mess with “Making Peace with January”.  After delicately laying color, it was bland and going nowhere, and I didn’t know what to do next.

So, I started scribbling, and then scratching, then scribbling again.  What I ended up with is a work-in-progress, which will a. Turn out to be a fabulous masterpiece. b.  a dismal failure destined for the scrap heap. c. One of those things that I think is bad, but everyone else loves, or d.  I’ll hold onto it all year, hoping I’ll like it after all, and it’ll end up in December in the retrospective of the year’s failures. But right now, it’s a scratched scribbled mess. But I’m stubborn, I’ll keep after it…even if it’s ruined.

In a way, it reminds me of the Joni Mitchel song “Clouds”. “I’ve looked at clouds from both sides now”.  Here’s a cloud drawing I did a long time ago:

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And one from either further back (please excuse the glare on the glass…this is framed)>

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But as it stands………here’s “Making Peace with January, 2015:”

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I may be shouting and screaming and tearing my hair out soon…stay tuned. 😦

 

Totally clueless in New York City

So, I’m working on “Making Peace with January”.  Repetitive work again, therefore, I must take it in small bits because 1.  It’s driving me nuts 2.  I have no idea where I’m going with this.  Did I mention that it’s driving me nuts?

I’ve been having a string of nights when I can’t sleep.  I decided to do the most useful thing….work on my drawing.  Thing is my studio, when the door is closed and the radiator is going full blast feels like the Sahara.  So, I’m in here, drawing, in glorious nudity.  TMI?  Maybe, and I’m not showing pictures.

What’s driving me nuts again, is a solid space, which would be boring without a trick or two.  I seem to  have fallen back to a technique I used in high school  If it was good enough then, then it’s good enough, now. (At least that’s what I’m telling myself).

So, visit my blog again, and you’ll see this beginning turned into a lovely masterpiece.  I can’t wait to see what I’m going to do with it myself.

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And of course, if you want to see more of my work, my website is http://roxannebaldwin.com

These winter days are bitter cold.  For those of you who may be in the Southern Hemisphere, stop gloating!   You’re day will come.

I have absolutely nothing to show you….but……

I’m working on “Making Peace with January”, and so far, it’s very pale…it would not show up very well.  I’m doing glazes with the colored pencil, building up to what I call a Pisces Gray, made up of a lot of colors, but the eye blends them into gray.  It’s a livelier gray than just using gray.

Recently I showed my website to someone, and she said “Wow, you have so many picture…..”.  I always thought I worked slowly, in the past, I would only get four drawings done in a year.  I was a grueling perfectionist, and eventually the guell tired me out.  I gave up art for a while.

But now, I have so many!  I’ve gotten over my perfectionism, my work hasn’t suffered (take note all you blocked artists out there).  And as of recently…I’ve discovered doing artwork has gotten much easier.  So easy, in fact, that I can’t believe it’s any good….but at least, it doesn’t seem bad.

The reason I post this, is that I know there are a lot of artists who need a bit of encouragement, and maybe my sharing would be helpful.  As one psychologist said….break it down into reasonable chunks.  Just do 15 minutes a day, if that’s all you can stand.  But 15 minutes daily adds up, and before you know it, you have a work of art! And then day, by day, the months go by, and you have a body of work.

So, maybe I do have something to show you….My old work from my perfectionist days.

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TGIM

Thank God it’s Monday.  I know that may not be popular among people who work Monday through Friday, but I have worked all weekend.  I’m off tomorrow and Wednesday.  So, I’m being contrary and what else is new?

I didn’t get much time to do artwork….but I am working on Making Peace with January.  It features a seagull against a cloudy sky.  My mother, who was always tuned into nature said seagulls only come inland when there’s going to be a storm.  Her wisdom seems to be true.  Again, though, seagulls are one of the few birds that are around here in the winter.

The idea was to have a white outline of a seagull against a cloudy sky.  Well, in the sketch I did that….and it turned out horribly depressing looking.  My intention is to spread good vibes, so a totally depressing sketch is totally….wrong.  So, I quickly did some edges of light coming around the clouds.  It’s smudged, it’s dirty, it’s done dirt cheap….but at least it will give you an idea.

I also made the seagull too large….looks like an albatross.  More seagull like proportions to come.

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